Sunday, September 30, 2012
follow-through, not so much
So much is going on in my life and I've been wanting to seriously blog for a while. I'm the kind of person who thinks through things and gets great ideas, but never actually follows through. I'm terrible with follow-through. Or if I do miraculously start a project I've been wanting to do for so long, it lasts about 3 days before I drop it or revert back to my previous ways of living. I don't want to keep saying "tomorrow" or "later". Those words need to be erased from my vocabulary. "Today" and "now" are words that I will replace them with! With this attitude, I could be one of those inspirational people who turns their life around for the better and starts living the way that makes them truly happy. Hopefully that is what is going to happen to me, is it so bad that I want that for myself? I think not. I'm a good person, or at the very least I try to be. I offer help to those who need it, I'm polite even if the situation makes me feel otherwise and I do my part to help the environment. I deserve to be happy in every sense of the word right? Well I hope so. Don't get me wrong, I am happy now. D and I are getting married in less than 2 months, I have a job, and I have 2 very cute rabbits. And the good far outweighs the bad. But there are still some things I'd like to change like: my health, my job, and my not-so-pleasant sleeping patterns. Maybe this will be the final push for accountability that I so desperately need. Or maybe it will just be another sad attempt to take control of my own life. I know which one I'm hoping for.